I got one of those unexpected bonuses today. Next week and the week after were promising to be absolutely killer in terms of work load. But, because I've switched shifts for the time being, I get the weekend off! This is my first non sick, completely off day since sometime in September. I think I'll be sleeping in (DUH), and working on cleaning my room and finalizing exactly what else I need to buy for Holiday gifts for people. Hopefully as well Dad can help me dig out my winter clothes from the storage shed in the back, so I won't keep freezing for much longer :D
I'm thankful for my friends and family, and even if i do kvetch about spending 60-70 hours a week working, the fact I have a couple jobs, and AM able to pay down my debt.
If you had to pinpoint the most I'm thankful for, it's that I have good parents who still take care of me, hot water, a nice clean tub, my cats are happy and sassy, and I have a boyfriend whom I adore very much, and who takes care of me better than I can take care of myself.
Now if you'll excuse me, there's turkey in the fridge. I'm going to take care of that.
"What's going to happen? I'm going to love you as long as you'll let me, and i'll teach you a little about literature and about real music, and then you'll break my heart."
Love invents us -- by Amy Bloom
Saw that on Literary Quotes and yeah. That definitely has applied to me in the past. Not so much now.
I have nails again! I'm trying to take care of them, and keep them for the trip. I like having them. They make my hands look prettier. My hands look kind of bad at the moment - they are swollen, red, chapped, and otherwise bleh. But I'll have them pretty eventually. I just use them so much more now.
Though, it's very hard to adjust to typing with them. :D
There's a such thing as too much caffeine?
and for further laughs:
Local Economy goes up fraction of a percent, as one insane holiday shopper, armed to the teeth with coupons, a list, and very limited amounts of time (and cash! only cash!) hits a local mall, walking out with almost everything on her list, and only breaking down at one store to purchase items not on that list.
Well, I got a couple Christmas presents, and got ideas for a lot more of them, so now it's waiting to get the list from the family, then I'll have to go to Wichita one day between now and the 24th.
Also started my checking account down here, and now can manage bills much better, and know which ones get paid of via which account, and what have you.
Bath and Body Works loves to discontinue my favorite scents. Nearly every Vanilla one I've liked? gone. Vanilla Bean Noel's scent has changed since it originally came out. Stress Relief has stayed, but went into the Aromatherapy line. In fact, it's the only one to survive thus far. Freesia? Where? gone for years. Semi Annual Sale, maybe. Cool Citrus Basil? Semi Annual. Apparently they kicked Sparkling Peach to the curb now, which was my newest favorite. Wild Honeysuckle is nice, in normal sized amounts.
Vanilla Noir comes out on Dec. 1. The lovely staff at Towne West in Wichita found a tester for me to try.
IT'S STILL ON. IT'S AMAZING. B&BW, I LOVE YOU AGAIN.
just don't discontinue it. ._.
(for the record, I probably have 3-4 years worth of lotions, body washes, and the like. I don't care. I love them. I do use them, which means I bathe a lot! I do need more bubble bath though. and it's very difficult to find yummy Vanilla stuff. :( )
Ahhh. It feels weird having money again. But I keep telling myself I don't, except for special times. I'm trying to save more (and I have! kept on track for that), as well as pay off bills (which I'm doing now! I have to start paying back my student loan this year as well.) and get closer to a goal. Which I am doing.
But.. I know this may sound completely stupid, and very self centered, but sometimes, a girl's just gotta shop for herself every now and again. I need (well, my brain thinks I need) stuff every now and again to keep me going. Maybe I don't, and I probably don't, but I still have a brainset that I do, and I'm trying to get out of the brainset, but working 60-70 hour weeks, it will be nice to come home, take a lovely smelling bath, slip into some soft sheets, sleep socks, and a comfy nightie, and go to bed.
Also, I combine going to Sam's Club to get Fresh Step at decent prices, and bought a ton of stuff for Mom and Dad, so it was a combined trip. Nyah. gas at $1.63, though, is really really nice.
Speaking of which, time to go take a bath before I go to work for a few hours. fun!
So between now and Christmas, I will be working ~300 hours. Don't do the math. 300 hours is a lowball estimate. I'm slightly freaking out, and slightly trying to just breathe and deal with it. I've got 2/3 of my shopping lists done, 1/3 bought, another almost third found, or needing to be made, and going to buy more tomorrow.
I need to take Truman to the vet sometime though, he's the oldest, and showing it. I want to make sure he's okay.... Poor baby.
I am sitting, eating dinner, and working on this entry, because otherwise it would never make it, with everything else i need to do tonight before I can sleep. And I haven't blown this yet. I don't want to. I want to finish it despite all the hours I have been and will be working. It's hard for me to write with deadlines, and harder yet when I'm swamped. But in reality, only 8 more entries, and I did it. And that's pretty darn cool.
5 weeks and one more night until I land in California and all of this - all the work, long long hours, pain, cramped legs - will be a memory, and I will be able to get hugs, give hugs, and relax for a bit, knowing that I did, in fact, do what I said I would and could, and proved myself.
And if I can't, well, I'll still be in Cali anyway. *giggles*
"is that you babe? the first words I want to hear
and I.. I gotta get home this year."
I start working a lot more next week. Somewhat. My extra days will be balanced by being able to be off a couple nights a week (after doing 3 doubles during the week..) but that's really okay. Hopefully I will be able to go through a lot of stuff I have at home, and start making piles to donate/give away, or to save for a garage sale.
We're having an early thanksgiving with the other side of the family tonight, so a short entry today. Never fear... one will come tomorrow. and the day after that, and the day after that...
good thing my upset stomach is feeling a bit better :\ I think a nap is in order.
Well, I think if i try hard enough, I can get rid of a lot of stuff between now and a few months. Ideally I will have a garage sale, and get rid of everything! But most likely a lot of stuff will go to second hand stores to be "recycled."
I have a pack rat problem. I hate throwing things away. If I know it can be recycled, "recycled", regifted, what have you, it's so much better for my psyche. I hate waste, if it's food at work, or at work (ha ha).
a friend told me about a program that I actually would feel good giving my stuffed animals to, for example. I probably have 400-500 stuffed animals. Most were bought used, and I, to this day, still sleep with stuffed animals. Now, I have some like Neopets and 1st generation Beanies and the like that could/will be sold on eBay, but not a lot of them are that way. So if i can recycle them by giving to someone that would actually love them and enjoy them, I'm okay with that.
The challenge is wading through the memories.
I am really not enjoying this "i feel like allergies, but really not, but it might be" kind of crap. I think I'm still hanging onto the remnants of a cold I have been fighting, but at least I'm starting to sleep better at night.
I've decided I just have a problem overall. I don't feel I'm lazy; I feel like I just can't get inspiration to do things well. It's one of the reasons I went on ADs in the first place, but I'm not sure that that's the right answer anymore. I don't know that there IS an answer anymore. I'm trying my best, so that's what matters, but I just can't keep my brain straight to do things right to save my life.
I suppose a lot of it is still "I work 7 days a week". Sometimes, it is only 3-4 hours a day, but it means that I know every day I have to drive 15 miles, and look presentable, and act all cheery and happy.
I also am getting more and more annoyed at all these entitlement brats. Kids coming in, trying to scam me for more than one cookie at work (The sign says "A KIDS COOKIE" not an adults cookie, or "a dozen cookies"), throwing fits, ADULTS throwing fits, wanting more than one cookie (when you're not even supposed to get ONE).
Don't get me started on the ex-coworkers that come in and try to get me fired.
If it weren't for the (very nice) discount and my pretty nice manager, I'd have left. I don't get paid enough to do everyone elses jobs.
Also, I work 11-5 on Thanksgiving Day. First time I've been home since 2001 and I get to miss it all.
At least we'll have leftovers.